apa-apa aje...2

saban hari kita dihidangkan dengan cerita-cerita yang baik dan kadangkala menakutkan...banyak cerita yang kita dengar sekarang ini menyembunyikan hal-hal yang benar...pagi ni aku setuju dengan satu post kawan aku yang berbunyi "there are two sides to every story ...yours is wrong!"..dalam banayk2 perkara sekarang ni kita sudah hampir tidak mengenali diri kita sendiri...tak tahu apa yang sebenarnya kita rasa dan lalui...suka sangat PERCAYA kata2 orang lain tanpa mahu berusaha sendiri apatah lagi menyelidiki...sedih kan???
Banyak kengkawan @ masyarakat sekarang ni suka ikut TREND sahaja...jadi Pak Turut..ikut saja apa orang buat..padahal dia sendiri tak tahu akan rasionalnya....kita sudah jadi tak kuat lagi....adoooooiii..sedih kan...pertahanan diri kita sendiri sudah tidak ampuh lagi...hanya bergantung kuat dengan orang sahaja dalam banyak perkara...

apa-apa aje...

Lama jugak sudah tak melawat ruangan ini yang aku sendiri buat pada masa lampau...sekarang nih dah busy pulak dengan Facebook....sampai tak terlawat pulak page ni..kalau macam kebun gerenti sudah tinggi rerumputan dalam page ni agaknya...ya la mungkin aku sudah lupa diri kot...hahahaaa..
ya la..sekarang ni macam mau semua yang INSTANT saja kan...kurang menulis dari hati dan fikiran sendiri tapi mau mengikut apa yang orang buat saja..tu la..sekarang ni pun aku sudah menjadi atkut dengan persekitaran yang ada..baik dari segi politik dan sosialnya...sana gaduh..sini kacau...apa sudah mao jadi sekarang ni kan???
mengimbau kembali kehidupan pada awa tahun 80an membuatkan aku merasakan kemanakah hilangnya rasa tenteram itu???? ya la sekarang orang bijak pandai kata DEVELOPMENT is a MUST...tapi sejak 30tahun yang sudah ni macam tidak DEVELOP pulak tamadun kita...banyak yang mo cuba jadi HERO la...padahal HERO tu memang tak ada langsung dalam diri mereka..
teringat pulak aku bincang petang aku semalam dengan seorang uncle di Old Town White Coffee...dia kata "u cannot give what u dont have"..balik petang semalam aku pikir2..betul jugak kata uncle ini..u cannot be sincere if u dont sincere kan...kalau tidak semuanya akan jadi plastik saja...sekarang ni banyak kengkawan dan masyarakat yang coba mempamerkan kebaikan dan menutupi keburukan mereka...try to be look PERFECT...padahal track recordnya adalah sebaliknya...
Well..i really hope and PRAY that our society jadi lebih matang dan sincere dalam apa yang dilakukan...macam YB pulak sudah aku ni kan??
ya la..risau pulak bila baca blog dan entry kawan2 yang banyak komplen akan keadaan sekarang dan cuma bisa menyalahkan masyarakat tanpa mahu meluangkan dan membagikan sedikit keringat akan perubahan...marahkan oarng membuang sampah tapi dia juga turut buang...marahkan kerajaan tak bantu orang miskin tapi hari2 makan tak ajak jiran sebelah makan ( macam zaman awal 80an)tapi membuang sisa makanan yang banyak.....apa sudah jadi ni...bila komen berapi-api tak ada tindakan....perkara ini membuatkan aku teringat akan parable "action talks/ speak louder than word"..ya la kan..tidak susah mahu menyalahkan orang lain, mengomen orang lain apa lagi kalau orang lain tu tidak kita kenal..tapi senang saja kita menghukum mereka..labelkan mereka..tanpa pernah kita berfikir APA AKU BOLEH SUMBANGKAN????
ya la bila aku pikir semua ini membuat kan aku takut..dan sekaligus rindukan kedamaian dimana orang semuanya hidup dalam rukun...
ya la...apa-apa aje kan?

Blessed Easter

Blessed Easter to family and friends...far and near from Spinsut's family....

Perception and FACT....

i just wondering why peoples nowadays rather lives in a life's that full of perception and lies rather than living in life's that full of FACT....having sure on what they STEP, FEEL and EXPERIENCE...follow the trends..that what they used to say....without generally think whether that possession is a NECESSITY or just a NEED.....

Start WRITING again

It's been very long time since my last post here...the heading now seems to be diverted more to Facebook site..even they call themself a FACEBOOKIANs..hope in the near future i'll be able to share more agin my experience in this tiny space of mine..

Children are growing up..Ezra now already 1 year and 7 months..Mayr is entering her Primary scholl next year, Mama (Brigid)already become a Teacher now...lifes has change..Thanks God for everything....

hiiii

it's been almost a year since my last posting in dis blog...banayk yang berubah..EZRA now also almost 1 year old. to be exact 11 months and 6 days...my princess Mayr dah 5 years plus dah...nextweek 9th January will be her 6th Birthday...
my life is very happening since the absences..

Ezra....

Last sunday umur si Ezra genap 1 bulan and berat badannya sekarang sudah 4.6 kgs. anak aku nih kuat menyusu. pantang bangun saja terus menangis mintak susu. Mungkin sebab itu kot badannya menjadi.kalau nak dibandingkan terlalu opposite sangat dengan si kakak, Mayr...

Tasha writing bout Babai...

This great man of our family just pass away a few days ago on the 2nd of February 2009. it was a great demise for all of us as he were the true living Christ in our family. A man of full courage and love which we could defined him. i still can remember that he done his mission as a father to his children and a grandfather a.k.a babai to me. before he was so sick,he use to tell me lots of good things that brings benefit to me. he spend so much on me since i was a baby till i grow up and done my SPM. he always give me advices to be a better person in future. now that he's not here anymore on earth,i feel really lonely without him. its as if i'm so alone in this whole wide world. i love him so much! OMG! i just can't compare him from any other people and its difficult to find that kind of person who is so holy. i wish he was here but its OK because he's with GOD right now in heaven. i knew it! babai use to tell me also that i must be a good girl in the family as the eldest among all of his grandchildren and to be a good role model to them by showing good examples. i'll never know if i can do that. but now,i think i can give it a try. i just want to make him proud of me from heaven above. i hope and pray that he will pray for me and the others as well. if i have the chance to meet him in my dreams,i will tell him how much i miss him. he is so meaningful to each and everyone of us. he's so special to everyone because he has done too many deeds that people can ever forget. there are so many things that babai told me before he left. having an amazing people in our life that left us suddenly is quite a shock event. i can't help myself when i saw him in the coffin. its unbelieveable to me that he really is going. i feel so guilty because i seldom come and visit him when he's ill. its not that i don't want to,its just that i can't help it to see an old person that is so weak that can't do anything just by lying down on the bed,it makes me feel bad. like malay people use to say,"sik kempang". that's how i feel. its because i seldom see babai so sick like that. he change my life before he left. but i just hate it when people always say that i'm the one who make him ill. i feel really bad about it. i think babai is mad at me right now for behaving disobediently towards my parents. i aleady know what babai wants from me. he just wants me to be obedient and well behaved young lady. i'll try my best! babai is also not a choosy person. he listens to everyone's opinion. i'm overwhelmed with babai's way. he never troubles people and he also don't even mind if people troubles him just by asking help from him. he will help if he can. i know how babai is and i don't like it when babai is at a high temperature. everyone respects him. i really wonder how is babai right now. i just want to know how is he. i wish i could know about it. babai loves each and everyone of us his grandchildren. he treat all of us equally and so does how he treats his children that has all grown up to be a person in life that has their on family. i think that all of us should be worry to much because he has aready rest in peace. he'll watch us all from heaven where all the holy one are and pray. i just want to thank babai for giving me so many advice,taking care of me,my siblings and my cousins. i'm so lucky that i do get some love from him before since i was a baby girl. thank you so much babai! take care! P.S I LOVE YOU!!! HappY ValEntinE's DaY!

EZRA EMMANUEL....

EZRA..itulah nama anak aku yang baru lahir 22 january 2009 yang lepas....My family wanna thanks God for this gift of life especially bila sudah tidak ada baby baru sejak Yeftha meninggalkan kami dua tahun yang lepas...ya la kalau diingatkan pada si Yeftah tentu dia sudah pandai berjalan dan bercakap sekarang ni kan..tapi apa boleh buat Tuhan sayangkan dia lebih lagi...
oh ya....EZRA anak aku yang baru lahir ni beratnya 3.3 kg and lahir pada jam 6.24 am.
Ezra means HELPER dalam bahasa greek dan second name nya pula sama dengan si abang (Yeftha) iaitu EMMANUEL : God is with Us.

Christmas

Selamat Hari Natal kepada semua kengkawan......hopefully u ppl will have a Blessed Christmas and Holy New Year 2009. Tahun nih aku tak buat open house...busy preparing for the coming of my anak..bini aku due next month (January. Tak sabar rasanya kan????Next year bertambahlah lagi keluarga aku...kalau mau kira-kira sudah berempat kami sekarang nih tapi...apa boleh buat kan Tuhan sayangkan Yeftha lebih dari kami...Thanks Jesus for the gift of life....